Okay. So. I know that in that one post I said that I would not be looking for a guy and I would let my dream guy come to me. Well, I'm still sticking to that, but it does not mean that I can not feel a little down when I hear/see someone talking about their gf/bf. I mean, really? Who couldn't be upset when they see all these stupidly happy couples?! Ugh!
Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for them. I really am... I just can't help but wonder if I will ever get my chance at being a stupidly happy couple, ya'know?
Today. I read a song written by my friend for his girlfriend. And it was great! So amazing... I couldn't help but feel a stab of jealousy, of course. Mostly because I wonder if anyone will ever do that for me... Who knows. Maybe they will. Maybe they won't. Maybe my dream guy will show up tomorrow. Or maybe he won't show up for ten years and I'll be stuck with the stupid jerks or guys that confuse me.... Ahhh.. Lovely, isn't it? Of course it is.
Why am I so obsessed with this?! It annoys to shit out of me! =( I don't want to be obsessed. I just want to focus on my friends and what I DO have instead of what I don't.
Any suggestions?
well it seems like ur trying to force urself to be happy what u should do is ask urself what it is u really really want in life which sounds like a good bf so maybe u should go out of ur way to meet good guys and avoid the ones u find the most attractive like rancher and them and just be patnentiient and be friends with themand the right guy will come running to u someday just be patant i remmber being in ur position alot and im still looking for her i think ive finaly found her but i dont know
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